I can't think of very many things that are more fucking awful than my child begging to nurse and having to tell him no. He doesn't understand why it was mostly unlimited access a few days ago, and now he's down to three times a day, soon to be twice, soon to be done. Bedtime has been the hardest, and it sucks. I feel terrible.
Deep down, I know he's going to be okay. He won't be scarred. He's had 3 years and two months of the good stuff. That's way more than most babies get in the United States. I just didn't want it to end like this, I really didn't.