Oh that's why

I couldn't figure out why I was feeling so cranky today, but then I realized that I'm staring down a very busy week. Along with three dressing changes, I also have chemo on Thursday. And for two days I'll be lugging two pumps around.

I don't know what I'm more antsy about, the dressing changes or the chemo. I don't know where I'm going to get the strength to deal with all this. Somehow I pull some out at the last minute though every time I have to do something that sucks. So tomorrow morning I'll find some determination and courage and get my ass dressing changed.

Speaking of ass dressings, man, this one has been giving me trouble. I don't know what was done differently, but it's ouchy and it's been ouchy all weekend.

And speaking of the wound vac, there was some excitement this morning as it randomly started beeping. The cause? The canister that holds the drainage and stuff was full. Gross! Eric was kind enough to change it for me. It was kind of weird seeing how much drainage and stuff is coming out of my ass wound. And gross, did I mention that?

Well, positive thoughts are appreciated for the upcoming week. I'm hanging in there, but you know, the thoughts really do help.

Oh, and Happy Valentine's Day!