It's days like today when I really start to dread chemo Thursday. I feel normal today. I mean, as normal as one can feel with a smelly wound and a wound vac. I want to feel normal every day, not sick. At this point, the only reasons I'm still going are Eric and the kids. The kids deserve to have a mom for a long time, and Eric deserves to have his wife for a long time. Finishing my treatment is the best way to ensure that, my rational mind knows that. But man, I just don't want to do anymore. Having someone pump chemicals into your body that make you sick is about as far from normal as you can get.
Should I quit my whining? Lots of people have it worse than I do. Lots of people are struggling more than me. I'm lucky, I have a supportive husband, great kids, family and friends. So I'll focus on the positive, keep listening to my Lady Gaga and Black Eyed Peas and Eminem (among the other trash music I listen to, haha) and things will be okay.
Happy Monday, all!
Keep on pushing through..........you will look back and know that you did EVERYTHING to beat this beast. I just celebrated my first anniversary (from chemo)and today I remain NED!!!! I feel better and stronger with each day. You can do this!!!!
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Debbie Dickens
DDrbbl1@aol.com
Sheri, You posted a helpful response to a post of mine on colonclub a few months ago. I just spent an hour or so reading through your blog and it's been helpful as I have stage III rectal CA and am just a few months behind you. I finished up chemo/radiation last week, will be having surgery (APR most likely - I have a low hanging tumor) soon, and then it's four months of chemo after that. So, your blog is like a window into the future for me. I'm glad I read it because I'm pretty sure I've been waaaay underestimating how much recovering from surgery is going to suck. Your spirit and positive attitude are very admirable. Keep it up!
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Welcome, Doug, but believe me when I say I wish you didn't have to be dealing with rectal cancer. Please know that your experience with surgery might be totally different (and better!) than mine. As I understand it, having a rectal wound that won't heal can happen but doesn't happen that often. Hopefully your surgery and recovery will go smoothly! Take care.
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