I couldn't sleep last night. Could it be the life water I drank or the chocolate I ate? I think it's my chemo anxiety. Yes, I has it. As I laid in bed last night, I would think of silly things like what to bring for lunch, what books I can give away, what clothes I want to keep. Then I would think about chemo. And what I wanted to get done before chemo. And how long I'm going to be sick this time. And how I'm not going to be able to drink or eat anything cold for days and days. And how it feels to sit in those chairs.
Yes, this was all despite the ambian.
I'd consider taking something for anxiety as well, but man, I'm already taking so freaking many pills. Plus, I'm almost done, right? I should be able to hold it together for a couple more weeks? Right?
I hope so.
Anyway, so tomorrow is Chemo Thursday. Let's think good thoughts for a short day and for not too many sickies. Have I mentioned how much I appreciate your thoughts? I really, really do. I couldn't ever do this alone, and I *will* pay it forward as often as I can in the future.