But it's hard. The sick weekend is so frustrating. There are so many things I want to DO, and surprise, surprise, none of them include falling asleep in my recliner. I know I have to rest, that my body is asking for rest. I get it, I really really do. I just don't like it much.
This too shall pass, right? I already feel better today, so maybe I can get to some of the things on my massive to do list.
Maybe that's the problem. Maybe I need to adjust my expectations and give myself a break. Maybe it needs to be about priorities right now. What do I really want to do? What's really important? What will I be glad I did, and what can I let go? What makes me happy, and what just stresses me out? I think I've always had a difficult time with balance, with mixing up wants and needs. It will be good for me to think about this more.
Anyhoo, it's been a pretty typical post-chemo weekend. The neulasta shot makes my head and bones ache, but tylonel helps. I ate stuff yesterday, mostly noodles. I slept a lot. Today I hope to get out for a walk/run (heavy on the walking perhaps?).