But if I'm going to be honest, I'm mostly thinking about my CT scan next week. It's not keeping me awake at night (thank you very much, sleeping pill!), but the last couple mornings have been early. There's other stuff going on (good stuff), but yeah. Stupid scan.
I'm trying not to worry. The messages I've been surrounding myself with for the past few months are that worrying does not help. I get it, I really do...putting it into practice is HARD.
It bugs me that I have so much scanxiety. The process itself is easy, it doesn't hurt. What we're likely to see on the scan isn't a big mystery, I just had a scan two months ago. But you know...what if. What if something else has popped up? What if this crappy chemo isn't working?
Luckily, we're going to be so busy for the next few days that I won't have a lot of time to think.