And at first I was all, "Yay!!!" It took about two minutes before I got freaked out and scared because if I don't do the chemo, it won't kill the cancer.
So I went to the clinic this morning. I probably didn't get back to the chemo lounge until around 8:20 (appt at 8am). Then we waited for a little bit, and the nurse accessed my port and drew blood. She said as soon as we got numbers back from the lab, we'd get started.
A little over an hour later, the nurse was telling me I couldn't do chemo because my white blood count and my some other count were both low. I should have written this stuff down, of course I can't remember what exactly the nurse said. It's the part of the blood that helps fight infection for you medical types out there. Anyway, I'm very susceptable to infections and doing chemo today would make that worse.
The plan is to wait a week, let my body continue to recover, and try Big Chemo next week.
This totally messes up my chemo schedule, but like Eric said, "It is what it is."
I was freaked out by not doing chemo. I don't want to do it, but I need to do it. Eric and I talked though, and we reassured each other that this time, we're in it for the long term. There's no rushing through this. We need to be patient and persistent. It's a marathon, not a sprint. My personal plan is to do some research and see if I can be doing anything to help my blood counts improve. And I'll keep doing yoga and running.
So I guess this suddenly free afternoon will be filled with homeschool-y type things. We started reading Charlotte's Web together the other day, and we should probably get to some math. The kids and I are also on the hunt for duck nests (there are lots of ducks around our apartment community, and they have nests somewhere).
Positive thoughts and prayers are, as always, muchly appreciated. It was nice to have a chemo break this week, but really, I need to do it next week.