I think everyone has challenges in life, and things that they can work on. Over these past couple years, I have come to find that one thing I have a really hard time with is asking for and accepting help from others. I'm not sure why this is. What is it about asking for help that is so hard? Am I worried that I will be turned away without reason? Am I afraid that I will look weak or appear too needy? Am I worried about taking more than I am able to give? Inconveniencing others?
I can think of many times when I should have asked for help and didn't. When Reese and I were having so much trouble breastfeeding at the beginning. When I struggled with difficult situations in high school and college. When I have just needed to talk to someone over the past couple years.
In most cases, people WANT to help. People want to feel needed. I know this. I feel the same way, I'm happy to help others. My first reaction when someone asks if I need anything is to say, "Oh no, I'm fine." I know that friends have said the same thing when I offered to help them, and I wonder if they just feel the same way I do about accepting help. It's hard, even though I know in my mind that we're all better together, helping each other.
This is something I will ponder and work on.
It's amazing the lessons you learn (and learn, and learn, haha) on the journey, isn't it?