The good news is...I lost six pounds!!! whoooohhooooooo!!!!!
The bad news...there's cancer in my lungs.
I don't know, it sounded funny in my head. And if you can't laugh, well, I've really had enough crying (though it doesn't take much these days to get me started).
Anyway, Eric and I went to see my doctor today to review the PET scan and talk about what to do. The PET lit up the spots in my lungs, so sadly, they are not some rogue fungus or anything other than cancer. We discussed a biopsy, which the doctor feels is unnecessary. He is 90% sure we are dealing with mets from the rectal cancer. Surgery at this point isn't an option. I can, however, have any kind of chemo I want! Well, fuck yeah!!!!
Um. Not really. The reason I'm okay for whatever chemo is because I have some wild cancer cells and not mutated cells. Apparently there was a test of my rectal tissue after surgery, so although I didn't get to see my hacked out rectum, it was tested. Wild cancer cells are better than mutated ones as they tend to respond better to chemo.
Up until now I have been just a little unsure of the doctor. He did something really cool though, he told us we always have the option to get a second opinion, and he knows of a very good hospital (Emory) in Atlanta, he knows a doctor there who specializes in colorectal issues. He even checked to see if there were any clinical trials I could get in on. And he gave me an awkward hug before I left. Awwwwww.
Eric and I decided before we saw the doc that we'd be seeking a second opinion, but we've really always talked about going that route if this whole cancer thing got more serious. Our doctor here said that if the doctor at Emory suggested a treatment that could be done at Regional here in Columbus, that the doctors and hospitals could certainly work together.
Do I feel better? Meh. I mostly just feel sad that I have cancer in the first place. It sucks. But you play the hand you're dealt, I guess. I'm sure there are more technical things about this...perhaps I'll ask Eric to post something on caring bridge for you technical types. Or you know, feel free to ask questions.