One of my biggest fears about the future is going through chemo again. It made me feel just so terrible, and I wasn't able to take care of my family. It was one of the worst things I've gone through in my life. I've felt so healthy and good for so long, I just couldn't imagine feeling nauseous and sick.
Then over the weekend I came down with some wacky stomach virus. I think our entire family got it to some degree, but it hit me the worst. I spent most of the day Sunday in bed. Ugh.
So all this time I've been stressing about not being able to do chemo again, to not be able to deal with being so sick again. But you know, I think I can do it. I think I'll be okay. If I was able to power through making the kids breakfast this morning, I think I can do it when I'm sick with chemo too. I don't want to, but if I have to I can.
It's amazing what one can do when they have to, isn't it? You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only thing you can do.