I stalled on the pills this morning. The stalling was partly the result of a crummy morning and partly because I don't want to take the pills.
Crummy morning happens when I take a pain pill, drink too much water, and throw up at 6am. It then continues when I wake up at 8am feeling groggy from the pain pill. Thank goodness the kids are able to get their own breakfast.
I was showered and dressed by 9am (and exhausted) though.
This not being able to walk right thing is stressing me out. I'm worried about falling. I don't trust my left leg at all. It's frustrating and scary.
I never expected my life to be like this.
We are thinking of you and sending lots of love and prayers!
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I've written ten comments here and then deleted them all. I just didn't know what to say, Sheri. But then I looked at my daily calendar quote and today's says "The best way to show someone special we care is to lift them to God with the gift of a prayer" and includes this verse "Then many will give thanks on our behalf for the gracious favor granted us in answer to the prayers of many. 2 Corinthians 1:11" I'm praying for you Sheri, and I know many, many other people are too.
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I'm so sorry Sheri :( Sometimes life just does suck, and there's nothing you can do about it. I was very angry with God for quite a while after my niece died. Sometimes there is NO reason and no purpose and everything seems impossible. But all you can do is keep breathing and keep going on. Onwards and upwards. Oh, I also came to the conclusion that it's OK to be angry with God - he's God and he can take it. You probably don't have strength to rage and scream, but you could just slip him the finger. And apart from that I recommend music. I have a great pandora station that I have trained to only play uplifting songs. How about Casting Crows, Lifesong? It's currently playing for me. Let me find you the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vaia32TsPq0
ReplyDeleteI really wish I could do something to actually help you and lift you up. I hope my clumsy comments give you a laugh if nothing else. I don't have a great turn of phrase or anything. Not really a wordsmith! Just want to send you love and light through the internet :)
Sheri, I really wish there was more I could do for you!!! My heart goes out to you!! I found some Bible verses to share with you: Isaiah 40:29-31 "He gives power to the weak, And to those who have no might He increases strength. Even the youths shall faint and be weary, And the young men shall utterly fall, But those who wait on the Lord Shall renew their strength: They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint." Your Dad and I will continue to prayer for healing. God is good. We love you, Mom and Dad
ReplyDeleteSheri, you don't know me but I came across your blog over a year ago and have been following it. I have cheered you on as you have done some amazing things, such as your trip to Cambodia and moving to a new city during your cancer treatment. I continue to lift you up in prayer. I hate it that you are feeling so miserable. I know you get so much strength from being able to walk and run. I am praying that the neuropathy is temporary and you will be able to walk normally soon. Please know that even someone who doesn't know you is praying for you.
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