Ugh, Scheduling

Scheduling with a cancer center (ANY cancer center) drives me crazy.  I had an appt with my doc at UT Southwestern scheduled for tomorrow.  Today (less than 24 hours before my appt...) I got a call that I'll have to move that back a week because I can't start the trial until it's been 4 weeks since my last chemo.  4 weeks exactly is on Thursday.  ONE FREAKING DAY. 

So.  I wait a week, and see the doctor next Wednesday.

One of the big lessons I've learned on this cancer journey is that I cannot control all the things.  Most of the time, as it turns out, I cannot control any of the things.  Scheduling has been a complete bummer for me 95% of the time.  I resent how much time appointments take.  I get irritated when apopointments are cancelled without notice, set up without notice, or switched around without notice.  And if I have to go to a cancer center more than once a week?  Forget about it.

Deep breath, calming breath.

In the large scheme of things, it isn't a big deal.  I was able to cancel the sitter for the kids, get childcare set up for next week.  Now I have an extra day to clean my house.  Um, yay?

Another chemo free weekend...that's definitely a plus.

I also don't have to run over to Baylor today to get the CD with my scan pics until Thursday, when I will be there anyway.  The kids would rather go to the pool today, which is what we're going to do right now.

I know in my rational mind that things don't always happen in my time.  Please pray that I could be more accepting of that.