That's right, I have one.
It will be my first one since the initial CT scan in September 2009. It will be my first scan since finishing treatment.
I'm a little freaked out.
You know how those get away with you. I don't like the "what ifs." You can't plan for those. You can't prepare for those. You just have to let it ride until you get the information you need to move on. I wish I was better at letting it ride.
You know what I am pretty good at? Faking it until I make it. So that's what I've been doing, being outwardly positive for myself, for my family. Inside I'm mostly positive. I'd say I'm 75% positive. And 25% negative.
Scanxiety. I has it.
Happy thoughts welcome and very much appreciated.