I've felt off all week. Restless, anxious, nervous, sad. Scanxiety at its finest, ladies and gentlemen. It hovers like a cloud and whispers worries and threats into my ears. It forces me to deal with feelings about having cancer and about life. It's uncomfortable and very much unwanted. It leaks out into relationships, parenting, and hobbies. Maybe describing it will make it go away?
Worrying won't change my scan results. It won't take my cancer away. The logical me knows this. Why can't the emotional me get on board?
Sigh. Scan is Wednesday.
As always, you are in our thoughts and prayers... May you find some relief from scanxiety this weekend!
ReplyDeleteMike S.
Dearest Sheri, As always we are praying for you!!! Remember you are a Mom and a good one! Happy Mother's Day!!! We are praying that the Holy Spirit will give you peace about your upcoming scan. WE love you!!! Love, Mom and Dad
ReplyDeleteSheri,
ReplyDeleteWe pray for you every day. You are such a wonderful and beautiful young woman. It is ok to not feel strong all of the time. It is at these times that you can lean on all of us who love you.
Mom and Dad J.